When you ask, 'how are you feeling?', what am I supposed to say? You know how I'm feeling. Are you expecting me to lie, say that I'm fine? Or are you expecting a miracle to happen, and that I actually am okay? Because I don't think you grasp just how deep it cuts me. And just how I feel. Or maybe you're trying to hide from it, because you feel the same way too but you know there's nothing you can do about.  But there is.  You just didn't want to.