Every time I feel there are no more tears left to cry, they
just keep pouring out. Every time I try to distance myself, it draws closer. I
miss you more than I could ever imagine. The pain, the emotion, I never knew
existed within me. To hear those words come out of your mouth. Ruined. To have
that weight placed on my shoulders, I know I shouldn’t have done certain things
and that I was wrong too. I just never saw it ending up like this.
The promises. The touch. The laughter. The joy. That look in
your eyes, the one that said I was your everything. All a distant memory. Just
the feeling of having you by my side. To not know how you are now. To not know
anything about your life. To go from everything to nothing. Kills me.
I don’t understand it all. I don’t think I ever will. And I’m
so alone. I’m so lonely, but I don’t ever want anyone to see me like this. I don’t
know what to do, what life has in store for the future, or where I may end
up. But please know that no matter what,
I love you. I will always have you in my heart. And I will be here.