I think about you all the time.  How you are.  What you're doing.  What things are on your mind.  How your day was.  Your plans for tomorrow.  Who you talked to.  What you talked about.  Did you eat?  Are you keeping safe?  How your make up looked today.  How beautiful you would have looked in your outfit for today.  You occupy my mind.

I'm trying so hard to get by.  I'm sorry I called last night.  I believe last night was the lowest I have ever been.  The most alone, abandoned, confused.  I miss you so much.  There's nothing I can do but just sit here.  And wait.  And hurt.  And wonder.  I hate my mind.

I think, how much easier would it be to wake up one day and just have forgotten everything.  To start my life again.  How little I would have to worry about.  But then I imagine, all the memories we shared.  Gone.  And I would never forget that.  Because for that period, as difficult as it was, it was simply amazing.  I will never forget.  I love you.  More than anything.

Please, whatever you're doing, wherever you are... please know that I love you.